Cozycloset

My heart drove me to the library today.    Even though the last visit was wretched. feeling a strong magnetic pull to a spot upstairs that is always crowded.......... Available! Wide Open!!! Amazement!!! Delight!!!! oh thank you...water for my poor dehydrated heart!!! ....collaspe... ...sigh glass corner. sunlight shapes resting very quietly atop neon green leaves sitting high with my tiny netbook and clumsy keyboard attachment teal blue minature booth seat and table perfect size just like goldilocks just right i'll keep this moment forever. a treasure to replay again when needed. .............my own sweet heaven and i spent

pressing and pushing so hard atop my chest my bones will crush and splatter my heart tight pain and it moves into my stomach tightening faster this elephant belongs to you take it back

I wish to live inside a bubblegum It smells delicious in there and everything outside now looks pink I love the wind and I want it to carry me everywhere I just hope I can handle all the sweetness

annoyed with me can you fit me in please? hot fast tears because you never cared how much you mean to me results you have the power to shatter my insides question How will my insides find home now?

Everything before was a lie. I am getting slapped with opinions, advice, ideas, beliefs, and criticisms. I feel so bizarre. What I mean is this: .....cut off from wiring my eletricity ....nothing powers me but outside choas ...feeling shaky, nervous, second guessing everything I sit here patiently. I'll wait forever until my plug connects to my wall socket.

help me with mental strength garden of quiet and love please keep those elements of wretched sludge away from my heart block out the modern day influences of all toxic forms help me please whole lovey sweet garden help me remember my precious infinite mind

anything that makes me feel....sick, nauseous, dead, hollow, squashed     you can count me out!!! im ON to what is going on i know what to avoid and what to feed my spirit

i had this graphic nightmare i felt death seconds away it really did paralyze me feeling smaller than a flea ill never forget that feeling ill reprogram my mind and keep my gates secure then i wont forget what is important i am liberated

I crawl I dig my nails   please blow me inside here everything tugs away          tug out the words          tug out the memories          tug out the people          tug out the GOLIATH world   forget what I've done here in my closet